Uncle Wins

I dont know how to begin
but if you hit or pinch my cheek right now i still hardly could believe what had happened.
I've been purchasing art materials in the same bookstore for merely two years already. Win's Art is the name of the shop

but now, there is no sign on Uncle Wins anymore. only Auntie Wins will be around from now on

the bombshell really did hit us to a great shock. Uncle Wins passed away because of stroke. He passed away!? it's like a moment ago he was still talking to us, helping us to find suitable materials for our project, helping auntie in the shop. but one moment he's gone. gone forever. soBz*

Life is short, learn to love your nearest and your dearest every minute in your life before it's too late

In the Memories of Little Tiger

It's Hong Kong Drama every night before the bedtime. Owh. I miss astro right now. There was once, another ordinary night where the three pair of eyes plastered in front of the huge television. Of the lazy us, mommy cleaned the mess in the kitchen after the dinner. packed all the rubbish properly before she threw into the big green trash bin which stood outside the house.

The three children still into their tv programme while mom was clearing all the rubbish into the big trash bin.

out of the sudden, one long screeching brake sound broke through from the outside. In few seconds time, mom shouted the three kids asking them to rush out leaving their favourite tv time.

i walked my way to see what was happening out there

blood was spilling on the road. the little ones barked and whined in unconditional pain. Whining so loud as if he was praying for god's mercy. His body was thrown on the roadside. Mother never stopped her soft utters to the little one, tiger tiger tiger. She patted on his little body as if asking him to be strong.

Being the twelve-years-old me, i stunned there speechlessly. Looking at the whole incident. I stood there doing nothing. partly because i didnt know what else i could do. Nearby neighbors walked out from their house. Asked what was going on. Mom started to tell them the whole incident. Tiger was knocked off by a car a while ago. Wondering how could my mom be so strong that she still could talk calmly to others. In a short while, a black car stopped in front of our house.

the driver was a young guy. He apologized. Begging to be forgiven by telling her that he didnt see tiger was on the road. I wonder.. How could mom be so strong. she cracked a little smile to the young man. telling him "It's ok.. it's really ok"

and the guy left disappeared.

He is the first pet in my family. He entered our house when i was in primary 6. Still could remember vividly his favourite sleeping spot was under the sofas. There were certain times that i used to kacau'ing him when he was sleeping soundly under the sofas. He gave an angry signal every time i tried to pull him out from his beauty sleep. Being the fierce him, he bite my poor little hand. It was so painful.. still remember the red teeth marks he always left on my hands. On every morning when mom unlocked the main entrance door, she would discover that all the shoes had gone missing. The shoes miraculously or should i say as usual, all gone to the back entrance door of the house. Mischievous him, he dragged all the shoes from the front door to the back door on every midnight. pondering again.. he got sleep on the night time or not oh?

He hated his long mouth squeezed by people a lot. he's so fierce that he barked to anything he sees. He chased cars and people. that was why mom never let him ran out from the house area. He was effortlessly cute and adorable that everyone in the house pampered him like a new born baby brother. Feed him with food, bathed him everyday, trained him not to pee and constipate in the house, played with him everyday. He is so hugable that he was the little pet i hugged every time i returned from the school.

He was buried in the backyard of my house. Tears shed for a solid three days. I never took any pictures with little Tiger. that is a regret.
He left just like that
just like that

i miss him dearly

Public Art from recycle materials

Great!
the new given project is about PUBLIC ART
and the installation of the public art must totally made up by recycle materials.

and here is a little part of my research about our country's recycle trash bin.

deng deng....obviously i dont think u're blind.
they are brown, blue and orange trash bins

who actually really cares about the dustbin? i dont even remember what type of recycle item the colour stands for. but now, i remember

BLUE- papers
newspapers, magazines, tissue, project papers, test papers, assignment papers, sketchbook!! yes.s. THROW ALL OF THEM AWAY

BROWN- glass
Heineken, Tiger, liquor bottles, lousy spectacles, ayam brand bottle
and yea.. recycle them!

ORANGE- Aluminium and Plastic
Milo Tin, can drinks (coca-cola, sprite, justea, nescafe), plastic bags, transparency papers etc


by the way, the rest of the rubbish should go where?
like rubbers, steel, zinc those all?
weird..

few days time to collect green recycle items. where shall i get those?
any idea anyone?

sick of bad lucks

i'm sick of all the bad lucks already
when will the good lucks arrive?

Happy Birthday Krystal!
Hopefully tomorrow will be another fun hangout

Pang Yih Fui a.k.a JazLine's 20th birthday!!

this post is suppose to be posted on the 2oth of February
sorry for the late.. but Happy Birthday!
Counting back the old years, we knew each other for merely eight years. It is like eight years? It was on form one of the secondary school year that we knew each other. First day in St.Patrick was also the examination day which would indicate which class that we would be going to. I had wreaked my examination papers. Yea. i did badly. So obviously, i was placed to the second class whereas every of my friends were in the first class.

Was the first day of the school lesson started. everyone had to queue up in the hall before entering their respective class. The first impression that you gave me was you're so big and a tall girl. hahaha. but i was still taller than you that time. >,< the first words that you uttered to me was "what is the time now?" LOL.. I was like."Huh? I dont know"

Cant believe i still remember

On the secondary school, we both emerged excellent result in the B class. Later on shifted to the A class in the second semester. I was thrown to the last row in the class. Sad la. why tall people always have to sit behind. And you sat just beside me. form 2 and 3 must be a tough time in term of relationship between friends to both of us. and allright, we were both st.john members. i entered the ajk team when i was in form4. i know u as the president of st.john and the library must have gone through lots circumstances and have to endure all the responsibilities. but it's all worth it. We all know that now..

until today, we left secondary school carrying with loads of sweet memories. i chose to pursue my ambition, you too. into A-levels and now to uni. You're 20 now, officially will enter the adult club in a year time. HAHAHA. so CONGRATULATIONS! YOU ARE OLD!

sincerely here, i would really like to thank you for every of your help. Sometimes i didnt know what to do if you were not there beside me guiding all the way from secondary school to college years. thanks a lot for being such a great friend to me

+ Life is never simple, and human never is simple. You might be feeling so down to earth upset when somethings really bad occurred. but remember not to be upset for too long. because you need to stand up with your own feet to continue a journey called life. There are certain times that we have no one to lean/turn up to when we're extremely upset. but so what? stand up with ur own feet. Dont let the past overwhelmed yourself. we need to learn to let go and move on as we all know that there are so many things awaiting us to do.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND

20 February 2009, Sunway Pyramid

WHY

WHY?


Let me out of here
i dont care
i shall sleep now

Chin Swee Temple

Before we left Genting on the tuesday afternoon, Ken actually drove over into Chin Swee Cave Temple which is just few miles away from the Genting Highlands. The founder of the temple is actually Mr. Lim Goh Tong. You know.. the millionaire who built the Genting Highlands. I've visited Klang's most renowned temple, the Dong Chan Shi Temple and now, Chin Swee Caves Temple. Chin Swee Temple is my favourite among all the temples that i had visited.

My first impression: WHAOOOO!

feeling so comfy standing on top of the hill.. felt so good blown by the cold breeze. indeed refreshed. i just hate the burning hot weather in PJ. Plus, the temple is surrounded with mother nature, thousands and zillions of green tall trees. Totally away from the busy city life. such a panoramic view you can view from the temple.

and yes, nearly forget to mention. There is a tall pagoda here. you know. it is so rare to find a pagoda in malaysia. and this is the first pagoda that i ever seen! and the first huge buddha statue that i have ever seen. Moreover, this Taoist Temple is decorated with so many deities and intricate cravings. so so so historical and serves as the best temple to remind the chinese our ancient myth stories.


let the pictures explain more...



left: the staircase leading up to the top of the hill
right: group photo with the pagoda

left: took loads of pics with that long long staircase
right: another group photo with the pagoda

the deities of fortune, knowledge and hmm. i cant remember the other one. and also the painting of the cycle of human in the hell. dunno how to describe. haha

the 18 steps of hell
humans will be punished based to the level of bad deeds that one have done in his/her life






they are so creepy right?
so CHINESE! behave well




The huge Buddha


He erm.. what does this guy called? He somewhat looks like the sifu in the monkey king drama. but i know he's not.
ahah.. my wrong. i'm not a taoist practitioner anyway
and i dont really know the ancient stories of the taoism
probably because i have difficulties in reading chinese words
dont blame me mar...
the tall Guan Yin statue



The tall pagoda
Templess!

The seven fairy

the guy in the middle is Mr Lim Goh Tong. The founder of Genting Highland resort and this temple


another group photo.
daddy and mommy sitting there. with all their children standing behind
and yea.. mr.amos promoting mamee monster almost in very pictures we took

i didnt manage to take a peek inside the temple and pagoda due to the time shortage.

the end.. and i'm looking forward to the next visit to this temple!

will update my facebook and picasa with pictures soon..

Another Genting Trip

please enlarge to view.
i'm lazy to upload one by one
so..it's a picture collage

the greatest joy is when we spend out time with a bunch of bestie, suffered the tension of working loads together, laugh out loud out of the sudden in the middle of the night, hang out together, travel, crack into silly laughter, with our super syok sendiri deeds in front of the camera and the list goes on.

i heart u all a lot~

it's another genting trip with the same bunch of friends. the difference is adeline, zoey and ken are coming along with us. too bad krystal and Ck couldnt join us. but no worries... sure will drag you all together in the next outing.

but genting, i'm bored with the games already.there are no excitement and anticipation in the theme park games anymore.. most of the time we just scream out loud purposely. i guess it is because we've played too much on our first genting trip.

but it is always fun to travel around with friends
thank you all

Valentine's Day with my boyfriend

Finally i can say, it is almost over!
It is exactly both mentally and physically torture for me to endure all these sleepless nights and tension. For five days, started on wednesday to be exact, i slept only around two hours per day. WHOA.. i couldnt believe this is me. I'm like a working robot.

Have i told anyone i had a very bad Valentine's Day?
i never felt so bad before on the 14 of February. Not because i'm single and it is also not because no one gave me a bunch of roses. Is that i already found a new boyfriend. Sounds good right? On the whole Valentine's Day i was busying dressing him up with silver, black and almond white colours. those colours are so perfect for him. By the way, his name is Transgular. Cool name huh? I even drew four beautiful portrait drawings of him. of one full portrait of himself from his head to his toe and another three close up images of him. So sweet am i?


See.. how cool he is


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i present,

tadaaaa...
mr. transgular





He is so 'transformer'
yeng leh


and that was my valentine's
and also the valentine's day for the class of D-ZYNE 2223
hope you all have fun kissing your boyfriend/girlfriend

and you know what? my boyfriend will be judged by the panel of lectures tomorrow. Let see how good he is in front of others. and i even prepared a big board to describe our dates and his personality.

and after the utmost important day of tomorrow,
that will be our break up day.
bye Mr.Transgular...
thanks for making my Valentine's Day so meaningful.
THANKS THANKS

Phoebe's cuteness

Am so busy lately.
oh well, let the pictures make my blog alive...


Behold!
Little Phoebe a.k.a ah BI BI
She's already eight in age

She is so hugable, so adorable and so effortlessly cute










i miss you

went out so wrong

From the day i started to blog, i realized that i am sort of reporting all the bits and inches of my life. Of the fun, of the memories. More to cayenne's life rather than cayenne's personal feelings. but who actually really writes about their emo life?
turns out that blogging is one of my hobby. no matter how busy i am, i still writing here. a self-satisfaction i guess.

these few days really making me insanely upset. I dislike writing bitter stuff in my blog. but dont know why for this time i want to do so

here is the list of the bad bad things that get me stuck in moodiness

1. Was in digital mall. then when i was about to leave the mall, i saw one long white letter on my car's front mirror. I got a fine (saman) letter because i parked my myvi in an illegal spot It costs RM100. It's RINGGIT MALAYSIA SERATUS. ONE HUNDRED. my precious one hundred!

2. yesterday i found out my camera has finally ready to bit farewell to me. yes, the canon digital camera sot edi! and you just no idea how crucial a camera for me. Feeling so upset of losing one

3. spent two solid days in my modified desktop pc running up and forth to digital mall and lowyat. when i thought things have finally done perfectly but at the end the monitor turned out merajuk'ing. my monitor is totally blank and the only clue is the little box popping out with the note CHECK SIGNAL CABLE. phoned and asked so many people. of pangpang's friends and my friends. but no use. down to earth disappointed

4. because of the two wasteful days i actually put aside my assignments. There comes the tensions and frights. I'm stress!

5. promised mr.razif my project module tutor of sending him my entire essay on this 3pm in the afternoon. but i know i couldnt make it. my only solution is to break my promise by giving excuses for couldnt accomplish my essay

6. feeling so stupid to actually came out to my desktop thingie instead of rushing assignment. It has taken away my precious time


when everything doesnt work out to what supposed to plan like. I feel so terribly emo in the inside. but positive positive. thats the only way i'll feel better..
let me try to ease the moodiness in myself


1. Was in digital mall. then when i was about to leave the mall, i saw one long white letter on my car's front mirror. I got a fine (saman) letter because i parked my myvi in an illegal spot It costs RM100. It's RINGGIT MALAYSIA SERATUS. ONE HUNDRED. my precious one hundred!
satu pengajaran untuk budak ini. at least next time i wont dare to park in an illegal spot already. treat the fine as a donation to the government.

2. yesterday i found out my camera has finally ready to bit farewell to me. yes, the canon digital camera sot edi! and you just no idea how crucial a camera for me. Feeling so upset of losing one
maybe this is a signal that i'm gonna have a new digital camera? maybe i wont get a sponsor from parents. I'll save my own money to buy a new one. so that i will appreciate my camera more next time. maybe i able to get a better one with higher megapixel, higher optical zoom and better function.

3. spent two solid days in my modified desktop pc running up and forth to digital mall and lowyat. when i thought things have finally done perfectly but at the end the monitor turned out merajuk'ing. my monitor is totally blank and displaying CHECK SIGNAL CABLE. phoned and asked so many people. of pangpang's friends and my friends. but no use. down to earth disappointed
at least i get my desktop pc done while ah pang still there with me helping to work things out. if not, i dont think i can make it. What for trying on doing things that i couldnt solve? just take it to the computer shop to ask professionals to fix things out. And i'm going there in few more hours! pray that my computer is okay.

4. because of the two wasteful days i actually put aside my assignments. There comes the tensions and frights. I'm stress!
stop giving stress to myself! nothing is impossible in cayenne's dictionary. ok.. go go go!

5. promised mr.razif my project module tutor of sending him my entire essay on this 3pm in the afternoon. but i know i couldnt make it. my only solution is to break my promise by giving excuses for couldnt accomplish my essay
he will forgive me.. he will! i'll email him half of my essay?

6. feeling so stupid to actually came out to my desktop thingie instead of rushing assignment. It has taken away my precious time
i can manage one... i kan already used to be a vampire rushing assigment. this time will be the same too.

aah..feel much more better. hahaha
although some may just be the silly excuses

Delightful Sushi Madness

SAKAE SUSHI!

so satisfied with the sushi that i've eaten a while ago. First time in my whole life ate so many sushi at once. It was like i were starving for ages already and today was the pay back time! LOL





Aren't they attractive?

If you see.. the cheapest sushi is the one with green plate. Red plate is for the most expensive sushi. and we ate like so many red plates!


guess how much is the bill!

RM 135.35
for two person
yeap.. two person
Pang Pang and me

of being back

i'm back dear all!
anyone miss me? hahahah
i know i've missed out quite a number of things from the day i didnt go online regularly. No line baaa.. i have so many things want to blog out. but i guess i have to make this post short. or else i'll die drowning with all the assignments. My Chinese New Year was a blast! Real blast! updates will be available a while. but first of all, have to settle the ASSIGNMENT. YOU AGAIN. Haizz.. and also unpack all my things.

THE BEST PETS AWARD

the first thing that i wanted to snap was with my homey pets.
there, my huge aquarium and my little cute doggy..
ahhh.. started to miss little phoebe already

THE ADORABLE PARENTS AWARD

the happy couple
daddy and mommy

THE SIBLINGS AWARD
my elder sister and my younger brother. As usual, sister gained fat again. LOL and brother grown taller AGAIN! gosh. he is taller than me nearly a head already okay. going to hit the ceiling if he gets taller again. I'm exactly look like a girl friend of my brother if people doesnt know we're siblings. LOL.

THE BESTIES AWARD
Ah Pang Pang- naaa...

HuiHwa- never seen her for a year already. our last meeting was on last year's chinese new year. how pitiful huh.

Fang Yee- she's my another ss friend. ahha

THE 5 BERLIAN BEST BUDDIES AWARD

i got 200 over pictures for my chinese new year. but but... it just seems not enough for me. particularly because i didnt manage to snap pictures with lots of people. but it's too late to regret now. Drop in my picasa album or my facebook (thanks to fadhlan for helping me in tagging) for my pictures. Malas upload here...and to huihwa: if you read this, you can grab the pics from my picasa now. LOL

from here, i have to really apologize for not able to invite you all to my house for an extra angpau. the timing was just seemed so wrong. and it was really a regret for not able to catch up in yamcha'ing with some of my friends. 7 days in tawau was just too short for me.

also a credit is given to jiun ming and kenneth for so willingly sending me to the airport. Thanks thanks...

till then, hope to see you all soon!