so, today is christmas. but trust me i'm not going to scribble about christmas this time. did some packing for the past few weeks. i wasnt packing for any vacation or trip but it was for everything i have in this house. i used to be so glad that finally i have my own house, own bedroom, own toilet and staying with my closest family. but at this point, i'm so unsure. perhaps tonight probably will be the last night i sleep soundly in this room. this odd feeling never hit me that much before, but perhaps the move out plan is nearer that makes me feel so terribly sad.
i remember my first day entering this student house, i was overwhelmed with unsatisfactory because i applied for college hostel not a student house. but the staff eventually placed me in a student house which apparently was located at the corner terrace house in Bandar Utama. but the house wasnt that bad actually and i found myself suited to the environment so easily. the first people that greeted me was adeline chen, the girl next door. then get to know loads of great people there. my first roommate jin cheng, other housemates like zoey, adeline, xinhui, eyee, shuk ting, sinn yi and many others. we clicked to each other in a short time and spent our meals together almost all the time.
when i told people that i'm staying with twenty others girls in a house they'll give me the same blanked and shocked expression. how on earth a terrace house like this can fit so many girls? but there's one fact that is so true. it is a truly memorable and awesome 2 years and 5 months of my life in this student house. we have fun celebrating birthdays, hangout, cooking our dinner together, plucking neighbor's rambutan, and so much other silly stuff. but this is unavoidable, vice versa we also have quarrels among the girls, quarrels with neighbors, misunderstandings, attacked by bees, thief and many more.
i am already missing the days i walk to college in the brisk morning with the girls, enduring sleepless night rushing projects, the chatters, silly laughter, every bit that has stored in my memory box.
glancing through another look over the room make me feel so sad. i could imagine adeline's funny sleeping posture when the weather is kicking hot, and her smelly pillow hahha. zhini's the hardworking ant studying on her table. and my blurry act of doing my own thing never bother what are they chatting about. i feel so sad because i have to leave. i feel so sad. you know. when i read one of
adeline's blog post dedicated for me, the heart is getting much much bitter like the taste of bitterguard. was almost broke down to tears yesterday by reading your blog post. it's so touching dear. thank you adeline for so many thank you(s) that you've wrote. thank you for everything dear roommate. i'm sorry i have to leave. but one thing that is true: roommates forever. i love you too. u're the best best roommate that i ever had.
i couldnt imagine what would it be like of rushing homework alone, enduring the stress alone, seeking for ideas but i'm all alone. i know the feeling would be so suckie. and perhaps i no longer can hangout with the same bunch of people as often as i wanted to. perhaps everything will not be the same anymore. i hate those negative thoughts. sweep that off!
i know someday, whenever i pass by this little house at Bandar Utama, i will tell the person next to me, this is where i used to stay when i was a student.
thank you for the memories
T___T darn i'm so emo
home sweet home.
